I hear you man! If only Satre and his buddies had never been born then maybe I could have lived my life in ignorant bliss, fooled into the belief that life is not pointless, and that I have no free will.
I find schauppenhaur (sp?) helps at times like these. I could choice to beleive that we are all driven by a collective "will"; that is mearly to reproduce. And the only escape from the essential pointlessness of life, is through the appreciation (not analysis) of art. And that the only art-form that does not first require interpritation is music.
I've never been a philosophical purest, and find various philosopical theories on the nature of man siuting to different situations. One can never forget Marx, and if one did what would the point be...
Nothing. You are free to do so, or not to do so it is your choice....